doom

i really never see it comin.
What can i say?
who should be blamed?
it feels like God gv me a gift and with a blink is gone.
maybe worst.
every very little tiny bits that i merely had,
just vanished.....
and every seconds i still try to convince myself,
is not true.
my courage that i hesitated so long,
seems ntg,
meant ntg.
wasnt anything after all.

.....

The weather is freaking hot. 37 celsius. What should i say? thank God im goin bk for summer. If not i will be burnt. It have been almost a month since i finished exams, having holidays, work a bit, watching dramas and movies, do ntg but slack. Excited to go bk? hmm, wasnt as excited as the last holiday. Dont feel like staying over too though. A lot of mix feelings. Definitely excited to see Wincy, 9 pups and family and frens though.



P/s: Cant believe is the last month of the year. time flies.
I need lots n lots of courage :/

SIGH....

Bye Willie.

Your are freed.

:(

Chris Brown & Rihanna

Bum bum be dum, bum bum be dum bum......

Chris Brown & Rihanna was AWESOME.

Rihanna was so hot!!!!

:)

okay now get bk to my studies. bye.

!

There is definitely no wrong in having ur own dreams and striving to achieve them.

But, pls dont drown urself and live too much in it.

YOU, YOU, YOU and YOUR EGO.

Do look back at others, and see did YOU ever hurt their feelings when YOU are 1 step closer to YOUR dreams.

Finals is so soon. But i just cant study!

Things hv been bordering me so much.

Making decisions that i procrastinated and procrastinated.

I am praying hard this time. Real hard.

For everything bk there.

And for me to hang on longer.

Birthday

Happy birthday daddy.
love you always.
n i guess, now matter how old i am,
i will always be daddy's gal.

:/

28 days to go. for me to officially finish this sem.
It seems like ages. with all the assignments, presentations, tests, exams.
Im so annoyed. And i really want a break.
Have been so unmotivated recently.
Not motivated to start an assig and end up dying the night before it is due.
Not motivated to start study for my test.
Not motivated to go exercise when i look humungous now.
Not motivated to stop eating cakes, carrot cakes, choc cakes, ice creams, chocs, cookies.
Not motivated to clean my room.
Im so lazy as usual, and more than usual.
Sigh.
Okay okay i need motivation :/
Before i regret.

Tagged by Belinda

Instructions: Remove 1 question (any from below) and add in a personal question, make it a total of 19 questions. Then tag 8 people in your list, list them out at the end of this post. Notify them in their chat box that he/she has been tagged.

1. What are your nicknames?
Mel, Xing, Zhung wan, Marrisha, girl

2. What is your most favourite thing to do?
Sleeping, Shopping, and crap really a lot.

3. What would you give up in return to eat all you want in the world and not get fat?
Give up healthy but not delicious food

4. Is there someone in your heart right now?
Er......

5. Do you believe you can survive without money?
No, but i dont need too much to survive.

6. What are you afraid to lose the most?
Everyone that I love, (Wincy)

7. What do you feel like doing right now?
Having my year end holiday.

8. If there's someone that you love, would you confess to him/her?
Depends on the situation. I won confess to him if he has a gf now or im so sure that I dont have
any chances at all rite. Thats gona make both of us feel awkward.

9. Do you believe in having true friends?
Yes, definitely :)

10. What are the requirements that you wish from your other half?
I just want him to be he himself.

11. What are the things that will make you think that he/she is bad?
Slut, pimp. fakers, backstabbers,

12. If you had to eat one thing for the rest of your life, what would it be?
Tiramisu ice cream, cakes.....

13. If you had a choice to be rich or happy, which one would you pick?
Happy. money brings happiness, but that happiness won't last.

14. If you have a chance, which part of your character you would like to change?
Be more confidence and stop procrastinating

15. How do you see yourself in 10 years time?
Successful? er, everyone defines successful differently too.

16. What is the one thing you love about yourself?
Er, having all my family and friends.

17. If you can bring only one thing along with you to another world, what would it be?
A bag that i can put anything and everything i want to bring it along with me. hahaha

18. Are you afraid of falling in love?
Yes!

19. Any piercing?
Yes, five.


Er, no one to tag too. everyone are tagged.

Tagged by Ling, Ee loe, and 41

Rules:
The tag victim has to come up with 8 different points about his/her perfect lover.
Have to mention the gender of his/her perfect lover.
Tag eight other victims to join this game and leave a comment on their blog.
If you are tagged the second time, there is NO need to do this again.
Lastly, and most importantly,HAVE FUN DOING IT.

1) I dont have a lover
2) He don't have to be perfect
3) No prerequisite
4) He just have to be him
5) As long as he is nice
6) As long as he loves me
7) As long as i love him
8) As long as he is nice

too lazy, tag no one :)

QRQRQRQRQRQRQRQRQRQR

okay here u go QR LIM. thanks so much for ur advices. Ms. professional.
haha and thanks to Ms Legendary too.
I am so happy to hear ur good news. see, i told u.... there will still be rainbow in the sky someday. But telling u all this is so easy, when it comes to my situation,
is still so HARD.
I am so glad that though we r thousand miles away, distance means so little, we still talk as much as we can, share every little thing that is happening.
OH YA. WH said i was the 1st to know cause is safest to tell me as im the furtherst away.
she is just plain jealous....
I know u told me 1st cause i meant someone to you :)
Is so good having you as a frend. and is really nice talking to u.
U really helped made me feel better.
As good as the feeling of hugging Wincy in my arms.....
Okay my fren.
take good care at UK. I see ya there someday.
PROMISE. trying my best to save.
Haha, i dont shop like a tai tai anymore.
okay, i shall stop here, and i will update u soon.
MWAHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHH


P/s: i will always love you and miss u. Hey do i still get to be in an open relationship with u? r u changing the name there :(

You visited me at perth :)

Ms Legendary.....

Hope vs Despair

Today i felt there is hope,

the next day, is just despair.

Sigh.............

Thanks so much for praying for me anyway,

QR n WH......

okay i shall straighten up,

and be STRONG.

Distance and us!

The DISTANCE between us is making me missing you so much! Yes I mean it. So damn much.

But why? i left for Aussie since Feb! i don live with you for a few months aldy.

I guess is because u r in Uk and im in Aus! the culture creates a further distance.

You are in London Babe! Sponge! Cup holder.

It just seems like ytd.

U walk in to my room at hostel and said hi! Is just like ytd, we went for a movie and we shopped together. Time really flies.

Man, Sponge! u grew freaking old!

I am so glad and excited for you. London babe! I always get so excited to see u at MSN. thats the only time we can talk! Bout what happen around us?

Different life, different culture, different country. But! a same friendship we share!

I hope everything goes well for u. Now and then i still think bk those days!

Hey rmb! we used to sell clothes that we regret buying in WH room. keep saying. You look so great in it. LOL. ok babe.

Lets move on! i know u will. yeah and im trying... have fun there, socialize, keep some weather man in ur pocket.

Spare me one too.

Yeah Qr visiting you. I hope ur roommate can take it. HAhahaha. okok.

Last but not least, get a nerd there, and study hard with you. take care babe!

Take take take, just like a sponge!

P/S: still misses u liz! mwahhhh :)

Trust me! u looks so cute here.

and i found this pic in my camera.

Loe ah Loe, Holiday, Memories, Future.

Happy birthday Loe!!!! Have fun. I know you are throwing a party at ur hse.
Have a blast. My 12 years fren :)
Omg called Kel ytd. asked her a freaking stupid question. so embarrassing.
I am going to the Perth Royal Show later. Hope is gona be fun.
I know i haven talk to all of u for sometime.
Don worry, im fine here
REALLY LILY.
I am loving here 1 day, but hating it the next day :(
Oh went clubbing last Friday. 1st time without you WH, Liz, Susan!!! ok not 1st time without you, there was this another few times too. That freaking time :(
But i miss u all so much. like everything flows bk in my memory, those time that we went together. Is so fun with u all :) But we won be goin together again! Maybe after few years. Cause liz n Qr is so freaking far away. QR!!!! pls wait for me when u wanna get a male stripper for xmas or watever bday. Good things shud be shared among frens!!!!

Is a week break for me now. 2 assignments deal on monday. i hope i will start them soon. just love the chance of sleeping late and waking up late. this is my break that i hv been waiting for so long. Atlast!!! time pls PAUSE......

The nite wit deviiiiii :)

The day before i left! and u met ur MR right!

OMG! found this pic. I was young.

Ling Ah Ling

Decided to blog. Because Ling asked me to do so :)
Nah.... have been thinking a lot this few days. From small lil things to humongous one, but i know they all are not big deals.
Just!!! I dont know whats bordering me.
Im just so emotional and sensitive recently.
Ling asked me to blog. She wants to know how have i been here.
n i realise i haven talk to her for so long.
I miss u so much. and Wincy :( and ur new dog!!!
I know you are doing fine. and i hope so :)
I just dont want us to grow further apart.
And im not worried bout that.
Cause i know YOU will always be YOU.
My true fren!
So! i decided to blog. To keep intouch with you, all my close ones.
Have been so busy. Stress! and could barely breath. Ofcourse. hardly talk to you all too. Didnt even call bk like i always did for the 1st few months when i got here.
I just don wan anyone to drop out in my life.
If u ever mean some1 to me. U will ALWAYS be. and i will always have a space for u in my heart.
Take care ppl.
Maybe this can really help us keep in touch.
Atleast know what each other are up to.
We used to see each other everyday.
I just hope to see all of u soon.