doom

i really never see it comin.
What can i say?
who should be blamed?
it feels like God gv me a gift and with a blink is gone.
maybe worst.
every very little tiny bits that i merely had,
just vanished.....
and every seconds i still try to convince myself,
is not true.
my courage that i hesitated so long,
seems ntg,
meant ntg.
wasnt anything after all.

.....

The weather is freaking hot. 37 celsius. What should i say? thank God im goin bk for summer. If not i will be burnt. It have been almost a month since i finished exams, having holidays, work a bit, watching dramas and movies, do ntg but slack. Excited to go bk? hmm, wasnt as excited as the last holiday. Dont feel like staying over too though. A lot of mix feelings. Definitely excited to see Wincy, 9 pups and family and frens though.



P/s: Cant believe is the last month of the year. time flies.
I need lots n lots of courage :/